Lack of sleep

soon my lack of sleep for past month is gonna damage my system

having less than 2-3 hrs of sleep each day

mind runs wild , i couldnt find peace in me

i need something that i cant hold on to anymore

help.... 

Destroyed

18 years ago, you made a decision that changed my life.

You were never there for any part of my life.

I stayed strong,positive and determined what i wanted.

i found a place where i belonged and felt loved.

Why did you come back to haunt me.

Why did you have to make me lose everything again

Why are you doing this to me...

Am i born to deserve all these from you....

fuck off!!! i dont need you anymore and stop calling me

I dont need to know anything from you anymore

There is enough damage you have given me.

Reason or excuse

I'm not liking this at all.

If it takes away your anger

Knowing it might not change a thing

I'ts just how you are going to see it

The way you emphasize how much i victimize myself

You are just angry

I tried several times , wanting to talk to you about it.

But I became someone who's yearning for sympathies, a self pitying fool.

You think that's me.

This time your wrong.



T.T

living life with lies should be a better way

Sometimes knowing the truth isnt always the best option in life

We all need a bit of lies to move on

Getting through the pain when truth hurts too

Nothing is easy

Not all can handle the painful truth

I chose to live with lies

Its better off this way

T.T

Saturdays ....

A day that my world collapse.

Stranded....

Scared ....

Relentlessly in search....

Everything seems so familiar.

Yet soul-less

Without the world i used to be in

The place that accepted me with Love

I'm just a soul-less being.

T.T

Pain

We all know pain very well.

No one ever likes pain and getting hurt.

Pain hurts in many ways , physically , mentally or emotionally.

How we deal with pain.

All of us deal with shit differently , especially pain.

Life is all about getting through pain every single day.

Life's goes on , as we all persevere for having the best out of nothing.

Pain goes away , it will be forgotten .

We will just be left with scars to remind us

How we can make it better, stronger and be different.

There's no escape from falling down and getting hurt.

We just go through it,

And someday we will make it.

My pain sticks around for a month now.

Nothing feels more than losing you.

And i know from this pain i learned.

And i know why up till now it still stays in me.

Because i know this is real, this is different , this is something special.

It's you who make me different.

This pain makes us stronger. Much positive and we need to be less negative.

I will do my best .


T.T

Simple

I miss you

T.T